Congratulations to the Class of 2010...

As the day draws to an end, I have SO much to be thankful for! I am now an officially a UGA Graduate or rather a UGA Alum!! This road has been one of many bumps and turns and a couple of wrecks that I was lucky enough to walk away from...what's most important is that I did it! I graduated!! And what might not mean a lot to others, overwhelms me with joy.  I am so proud of me and the other graduates that are now among the some of the top in the country... I couldn't be happier!

As I head out into the great wild yonder (lol), I want to thank everyone who made it possible, and you all know who you are!!  These people picked me up, motivated me when I thought I couldn't go any longer and pushed me through many nights of sweat, blood and tears to make it through...but I can promise you, today made it all worth while and I wouldn't have had it any other way!  This experience has helped mold me into the woman that I am today and I want everyone to know that I appreciate your help, your prayers, your love and your support mean so much!! THANK YOU!!!

As a college graduate, I look forward to nights with nothing to do, having a social life again, actually talking to people about things OTHER than grades, papers, professors, etc...it no longer consumes me and I look forward to stress free days, nights and weekends :) That is until I start grad school...if I choose that path.

I look forward to thoroughly enjoying every minute of my life and what I have to offer this big, amazing world...SO LOOK OUT WORLD....HERE I COME!!!

Moving On...FINALLY (Part 4)

FINISHED WITH FINALS....GRADUATING ON FRIDAY!!!

"Free at last, Free at last, Thank God all mighty I'm free at last!!!" ~MLK

Moving On...Stress (Part 3)

If things go wrong, don't go with them.  ~Roger Babson

For YEARS, I've been taking it all home with me, work, school work, group problems, etc. and that's not including the other things that I was ALREADY dealing with.  The older I get I have to come to realize it's not worth it - none of it.  Why should I use my free time to stress about things that I can do nothing about...why am I worrying my life away and giving myself anxiety attacks?

No longer will I bring home the stress of my days into my household, its over.  If I want to get something out, I'll need to take it somewhere else (possibly the gym? lol). I refuse to let the small and petty things of others issues and worries take a toll on my life and my relationships, its not worth it.  At the end of the day, do you want to be that person who worked their life away? I don't!!

After my final tomorrow, I pledge to leave the unimportant things at the door when I get home and then I can pick them back up the next morning on my way out.  I want to live as stress free as possible, so that I may fully live life to its fullest in every way possible and cherish all the times in my life to come.

If you want to test your memory, try to recall what you were worrying about one year ago today.  ~E. Joseph Cossman

 

Worry and Stress bankrupt the spirit

Moving On....Time (Part 2)

I'm movin' On
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone...

 

 I movin on...from the past to the present and looking forward to the future.

As we grow older, there are parts of us that miss the 'Good Ol' Days' and we constantly try to get back to that or fill that void where those good times once were.  What we don't realize is that by constantly looking back, we are missing what's in front of us and therefore it passes us by.

I don't regret my past, each and every part has been an enormous growing experience for me and has ultimately made me the person I am today.  However, I'm tired of dealing with the past. I'm letting it go.  Letting go of the ones who hurt me, the ones who made me laugh, cry, made me angry, sad, happy and all other feelings.  I letting go of the times and places of things that try to haunt me, either good or bad.  I'm letting go of all toxic things, I'm letting go of grudges, I'm letting go of pain and sorrow. And I'm moving on to bigger and better things, even if only in my eyes.

Moving on isn't about forgiving and forgetting.  It's about accepting and letting go.

I can't wait to see what's in store for me and making new and exciting memories is what's waiting on the other side.  Looking straight ahead and looking up are the only places I'll be watching for a while. The more I write, the more I look forward to my future and what it holds in store for me and I've got to let it happen instead of holding myself back...and for that, I'm letting go and moving on up....(to the east side - hehe)

I'm Moving On...Friendships (Part 1)

As my college (undergraduate) career comes to an end, I have begun to think about my life and where I currently am and what I'm doing (which sucks by the way).  Although I have always thought about myself as an adult, the time has come for me to put on my big girl panties and finally be a part of the 'real world' (as most people like to call it).  I'd like to take these next few days to talk about several parts of my life that will be moving on...

See what I think is that the real world will be WAY better than the current one where I work AND go to school.  Now I get to just work, come home, watch tv, go to the gym, go out to eat, etc.  All without worrying about homework, test, group projects, etc.  I get to be a functioning member of society without all the extra effort....oh oh oh and I get my SOCIAL LIFE BACK...HELLO FRIENDS :)

As for the cons of this situation, I have also come to realize that as we get older, things change.  Friends change, family change, we change and not all of it for the better. I feel as though at this point in my life I have been given the opportunity to evaluate my friends and how what role they currently play.  I have always believed that people come in and out of your life as you need them to and each one brings something new; whether it be a new experience, a new opportunity, or just new fun.  Each person always leaves a piece of themselves with you no matter what the situation, your life will be better knowing these people.  But what really sucks is knowing that you do what you can, but as you get older, relationships change and coping with the fact that it takes two to keep this relationship going.  

What I'm really trying to say is that you REALLY find out who your friends are at this point in your life.  As we move, start families, get new jobs, etc.  You find out who your friends are, the ones that will stick with you at all times.  These people have changed over time and as friends, you have grown with that person and not left them behind.  We have to grasp this and understand that this happens to everyone and that it's okay to let go and move on.

One thing that I constantly remind myself of is that you never know what lies ahead.  So lets not mourn the past, but look forward to the future and the new relationship that it holds.

Thankful

As we leave Thanksgiving holidays and zoom right on in to Christmas, I felt it necessary to enjoy this time of thankfulness and share the things that I am most thankful for this year.

First and foremost I am thankful:
      that I am saved by the grace of God
      that I can continually wake up every morning (walk, talk, think, hear, touch and feel - that my heart beats)
      that I have friends that really and truly love me for me
      that I have family that love me for me
      that I am going to graduate this December from the University of Georgia
      that I have a job
      that I have a roof over my head and food on my table
      that I have a dog that loves me unconditionally
      that I have a man in my life that loves and supports me through thick and thin
      that people still surprise me
      that I am able to forgive
      that I am able to be me and live my life as I so see fit

If I have learned anything this year, it is that it's time for me to be thankful for the things I have, for the things I don't have and for the opportunities that I have been given in this life.  I may not always have the best, the most, the greatest or the one and only, but I do have a God that is merciful and people who love me and without those I am nothing, but with them I can be great.

Thank you for touching my life this year, there have been many that have come and gone and I am thankful for the chance to have so many mean so much to me.

I love you all....

Visit from above...

Love symbol meanings come in many forms. Many times certain things come into our lives with a message of love and these special things serve as a symbols or an icon and convey messages specific to compassion, ardor, passion and tenderness.  For the past week I have been visited by a number of ladybugs,( now please consider that it is the middle of November and that Ladybug's shouldn't be out this time of year) at 1st I didn't think much of it until I started noticing them everywhere I go and not just outside, I have found one in every room of my house.  So I decided to look up the sybolic meaning of the Ladybug and here is what I found....

Nearly ALL cultures believe that a Ladybug is lucky. 

Killing one is said to bring sadness and misfortune. 

In France, if a Ladybug landed on you, whatever ailment
    you had would fly away with the Ladybug.

In some Asian cultures, it is believed that the Ladybug understands
    human language, and has been blessed by God, Himself.

During the Pioneer days, if a family found a Ladybug in their log cabin

    during the winter, it was considered a "Good Omen"

 After reading all of these good things about Ladybugs, I began to think about how lucky I am and how lucky I was to know a very special Bug, Haleigh, and after everything that has happen this year, I can't help but think that this week, she was with me.  The whole week to show me how lucky I am to have such a great group of friends and family, how lucky I am to be Graduating from UGA next month, how lucky I am to be alive.  I want to thank her for showing me that this week and also thank her for being my Guardian angel in my time of need.  Its when you least expect it that God shows you the great things in your life and with Haleigh they were able to show me how lucky I am this week....

Thanks guys, here's to you....xoxo

Gratitude

Silent gratitude isn't much use to anyone.  ~G.B. Stern 

Gratitude: the quality or feeling of being grateful or thankful

      It seems as though these days that we are a generation of selfishness.  We live in a day and time when "thank you" is hardly murmured for opening a door, passing the salt, or any time when we should be thankful that others took the time to help us, no matter how minute the task may be.  We hardly take the time to even notice or be aware that others are even doing things to make sure we succeed in our lives.  

      What's worse is that it's not only children who are selfish these days, it's adults and parents.  Each and every one out for number 1; not caring who they hurt on their way to the top - or to their happiness. 
       What we need to be aware of is that what we do, how we act, how we treat others, affects the way others, who are constants in our lives, act on a daily basis.  What happens is that this trend continues to carry on with those people, constantly affecting another, and another and another; to the point that everyone might say, "why should I care?" Why should I help others when no one is helping me?"  This statement is NOT the way to look at our lives, we should be thankful, gracious, caring and FULL OF GRATITUDE, towards those who have helped us along the way.  
        If I have learned nothing in my life besides the fact that gratitude is needed, gratitude is earned, deserved and to be respected, then all is okay.  Because I have learned that those who love you most, help you the most often in ways you never even think really matter, in the smallest ways possible, really deserve the upmost gratitude from you and need to be told how gracious you are and that what they are doing has helped you become the person you are today.
        I hope that in the future I am able to help do for others as many have so graciously done for me in these past years of my life and that one day I can make a difference for someone who needs that little extra help, no matter what it may be.  
        So THANK YOU, you all know who you are and I hope you all know how much you mean to me. Gratitude is memory of the heart.

 

The only people with whom you should try to get even are those who have helped you.  

~John E. Southard

      

Oh Deer...

Seems like everyone is getting into hunting these days...now mind you, I've been hunting for years, probably since I was old enough to shoot a gun.  So in honor of deer hunting, I've decided to share some new hunting experiences that I've experienced so far this year...

This is me in the tree stand, waiting for the deer to come out.

Unfortunatley, I missed last weekend :( some deer hunter right?

 

BUT....MY BABY BRO DIDN'T

 

TJ's 1st Buck!!!

Also my daddy, being the deer hunter he is, he decided to show off last weekend and bag 2 buck's out of my stand....Thanks Dad... 

To lessen the pain to the sight above, my Uncle David sent me the picture below

 

Can't beat this cutie - This is my cousin Audrey - Can't get much better than this!!

Since I'm not going to be able to get back into the stands until Thanksgiving, I'm expecting my other Uncle...Scotty that is, to bring home the big one in this stand below...or his condo as Agan likes to call it, although Agan's really just jealous (hehe)

Nice eh? :)

So in one last effort to honor all you deer hunters out there, please enjoy the following song 

Da Turdy Point Buck

(: Happy Hunting :)

Hey Pumpkin...

Last night I had some of the most fun I've had in a while.  With school, work, and homework, I barely have enough time to eat and sleep.  So after 3 papers and a test this week, I decided to take the night off to enjoy it with some great friends and my pumpkin.  NO NOT AGAN......                                                                     This pumpkin!!!!

 

We had several of our couple friends over and enjoyed some pumpkin carving, a few drinks, some good food, and just a plain ol' great time!!

Below are some pictures!!! Enjoy!!!

 Boo (My Pumpkin), Buffy the Vampire Slayer (Emily), Chucky (Andy), Jaws (Agan) and Jack the Pumpkin King (Keegan and Olivia)

My Pumpkin!!!

Happy BIrthday Bug....

I know I haven't blogged in a while and I'm definitly going to start back full force....

However, today is a special day and I want to wish my Angel Haleigh Marie Hudson a HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! 

She would have been 17 today.  Although her life was cut short, we should remember that everyday is special, that we should tell each and every person we love on a daily basis how much they mean to us as much as possible. Life's not fair and no matter how we feel today - Tomorrow isn't promised.

I love you Haleigh Bug....

10/13/1993 -04/01/2010

If I Die Young (The Band Perry)

If I die young bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song
oh oh oh oh

Lord make me a rainbow, I’ll shine down on my mother
She'll know I’m safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh and
Life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
ain't even grey, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I’ve had just enough time

If I die young bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I’ve had just enough time

And I’ll be wearing white when I come into your kingdom
I’m as green as the ring on my little cold finger
I’ve never known the lovin' of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand
There’s a boy here in town says he’ll love me forever
Who would have thought forever could be severed by

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I’ve had just enough time

So put on your best boys and I’ll wear my pearls
What I never did is done

A penny for my thoughts, oh no I’ll sell them for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I’m a goner
And maybe then you’ll hear the words I been singin’
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin’

If I die young bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song
oh oh

The ballad of a dove
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep ‘em in your pocket
Save them for a time when your really gonna need 'em oh

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I’ve had just enough time

So put on your best boys and I’ll wear my pearls

If I Die Young Video

End of Summer Draws Near...

As the end of summer drawls near - I am thankful for loving friends and family...

This past weekend I head up to Rock Hill, SC and went with Sykora and Ms. Reba to see Mary Poppins (the Musical) It was one of the most amazing and best shows I have seen!!!

Also as August comes to a close, I can already hear the Redcoat Band playing the Bulldog Anthem....This Satrrday kicks off GA Football between the Hedges...AND I CAN'T WAIT!!!! So a little tribute to help get me through this week :)


Redcoat Band Tribute!!!

Have a great Monday!!!

The End of the Beginning

This week I began my last semester as an Undergrad...WOW...And THANK GOD...Just a few short months ago I never thought that I would be here, and by the grace of God along with family and friends support I am here and on Dec. 17, 2010 I will graduate with a BA in Speech Communication from the University of Georgia!!!

All I can do is work hard, study, and bust my ASS!!!  I said it's Great to Be A GA BULLDOG!!!!

End of Summer Update

So it's almost been a month since I posted last  - So I'm gonna cover as much as possible!!

Okay - Highlights:

Austin and Debbie Kilpatrick Wedding:
COMPLETE AND TOTAL BLAST!!
We did have minor issues on the way down...A flat tire on I-95 but managed to still make it to the end of the rehearsal dinner - The whole gang decided to go out one last time and we had a blast at the 'Falcon's Nest'.
The Girls had to get up Early the next morning....I might add...to have their hair done by the FABULOUS Tina!!!  Afterward we headed to Fernandina to the Hotel so that I could do their makeup and help them get ready!! Then THE WEDDING!!! It was beautiful!!! I wish them both the best and miss them all dearly!!!
Below are a few pics:

 After the wedding we headed to Amelia Island to spend the week with Sykora, Rusty, Liliana, and Mr. Carl!
It was SOOOO much fun and super relaxing! (Since I didn't take any pictures - I borrowed some from Sykora!! THANKS!!)

Can't beat a week at the beach!! We also had family pictures made as well!! Check them out at: Family Photos

Next...I GOT BACK INTO SCHOOL!!!YAY!! I am once again a Bulldog and will GRADUATE in DECEMBER!! I'm super stoked!!! It couldn't get any better than this!!!


Also: ERIN MOVED IN!!!  I really think she is enjoying her time here so far - She made it to class today - so no worries - Dallas also has a new friend!!!

That's pretty much and up to date info session on my life!!!

XOXO

Not Much to Say...but...OKAY!?!

Not too much going on lately...but DRAMA, DRAMA, DRAMA (and no - I don't me the kind like Shakespeare)...And none of it has to do with me...however, it seems as though I am constantly being drawn into these VERY DRAMATIC situations...which may I add are SUPER EXHAUSTING!!!

I have come to see that there are those people who THRIVE on the DRAMA of not only thier lives, but the Drama in the lives of others...and they constantly eg it on!! I mean COME ON, is it that important to have that much SHIT going on that you never get to rest!!!

Then there are those like me that can go a lifetime without ANY DRAMA and try to stay out of it at ALL COST, however, it's not always possible. So, I have come up with a few suggestions on how to deal with someone who is SUPER DRAMATIC...

1. Step 1
   Stay calm and try not to react when dealing with a drama queen/king. By not engaging in the same dramatic energy that is thrown at you will help deflect it. If a drama queen/king isn't getting a rise out of you, they will eventually move on to someone else who will. (THUS LEAVING YOU ALONE)
   
   
2. Step 2
   When dealing with a drama queen/king, try not to use overly dramatic words such as obnoxious, ridiculous, or crazy. Using overly dramatic words, even if you are trying to get the drama queens/kings attention will only add to the heightened emotional state which is the exact opposite of what you want to do. (THUS LEADING TO MORE DRAMA)
   
   
3. Step 3
   Validate the drama queen/kings issue but don't dwell on it. Suggest ideas that will help re-focus the drama queen/kings attention. If a drama queen/king continues to vent and remain stuck dwelling on a problem, they will only become more dramatic about it which won't solve the problem. Get the drama queen engaged in ways to fix the problem instead of dwelling on it. (THUS GIVING THEM A DIFFERENT TASK THAN BOTHERING YOU)
   
   
4. Step 4
   Avoid gossiping, angering, or doing anything that may unnecessarily upset a drama queen/king. A drama queen/king is good at creating drama and you don't want to give them a reason to perform. (THUS BRINGING YOU INTO THE MIX...we wouldn't want that)
   
   
5. Step 5
   Put forth strong boundaries when dealing with a drama queen/king. If a conversation about an issue far extends past its conversational point, change the subject. If you have to be stern about changing the subject, then do so. When you try to lend a hand to a drama queen/king without success or appreciation, let them know you had good intentions but your assistance will be coming to an end. (THUS BLOWING THEM OFF - which might piss them off and make them leave you alone)
   
   
6. Step 6
   If all of your attempts dealing with a drama queen/king have failed, it might be time to end the relationship or at least limit it if you are unable to end it entirely. There is no reason you have to be subjected to a dysfunctional and toxic relationship. (OR BETTER YET, JUST SLAP A BITCH AND TELL THEM THEY NEED THERAPY!!!)
   
   
   
   
   
   
   
   

Summer Lovin

After many, many...MANY, trips home this summer; I decided to stay in Athens for a weekend to do some MAJOR cleaning and to catch up on some much needed R&R.  Agan decided he couldn't spend a weekend without me ;) so he headed up to Athens for the weekend :)

Saturday consisted of working in the yards during the morning...while I had lunch with an old friend - Melissa White- who was in town for the weekend for a wedding.  It was fabulous getting to catch up with her!  After Agan finished working...he caught a quick nap before taking me to Olive Garden for dinner and then to the movies to see Eclipse (and Predators...lol).

Sunday was a nice relaxing day.  Cooked Waffles and Eggs for brunch and then we headed to Academy Sports to get Agan a new swim suit and some work shirts...little did I know that Agan had alterior motives - as I was trying on sunglasses (as I always do) I picked out a pair of Costa del Mars that I liked and low and behold... I now have a new pair of sunglasses!! Thanks Babe!!

I say all of this to say, that I really enjoyed my relaxing weekend - its nice to get away every once in a while, even if that means staying home :)

New Roomie and A Weekend At the Lake

Last week was extra exciting...I got a new roommate!!! Erin Garrett moved most of her things in this weekend before her FABULOUS Orientation day on Friday - She is now Officially a GA Bulldog!!

~I said it's Great to be a Georgia Bulldawg~

She will completely move in August 1st and I can't wait to break her in - It will be exciting introducing a newbie to the great city of Athens GA and I can't wait for her to love this place as much as me!!! (I have already got her addicted to Yoguri...so I don't think it will be that hard!!)

After they left on Friday I headed straight to the lake to enjoy a weekend with Agan, the fam, and some other great friends in the cove :)  We had a blast... Speaking of Blast - our 4th of July Fireworks were quite exciting - I have to say - seeing the boys run for cover after Chase lite a whole box on fire (that didn't leave the dock) was quite HILARIOUS!!!  I was waiting for them to JUMP into the water!!

All In all - I had a great weekend!! Although I am sure I am SLEEP DEPRIVED - so heading home for a quick name!! XOXO

Liar, Liar, Pants on Fire...

"Liars share with those they deceive the desire not to be deceived" ~ Sissela Bok

A lie (also called prevarication, falsehood) is a known untruth expressed as truth.

A lie is a type of deception in the form of an untruthful statement, especially with the intention to deceive others, often with the further intention to maintain a secret or reputation, protect someone's feelings or to avoid a punishment or repercussion for one's actions. To lie is to state something that one knows to be false or that one does not honestly believe to be true with the intention that a person will take it for the truth.
       
A liar is a person who is lying, who has previously lied, or who tends by nature to lie repeatedly - even when NOT NECESSARY.

~So lets be honest - we have all at one time or another told a lie or story - or something - we ALL make mistakes.  HOWEVER!!! When you start messing with peoples lives and TRYING to hurt them or their family to make yourself look good - You need to go look in the mirror and CHECK YOURSELF!!  When your messing with people's lives - your playing with fire and unfortunately, for those that don't know when to stop...they are possibly in for a RUDE AWAKING...and It's not going to be pretty.

I Wanna Live Where the Green Grass Grows...

“We're born alone, we live alone, we die alone. Only through our love and friendship can we create the illusion for the moment that we're not alone.”

After spending several summers alone (for the most part), you begin to look at yourself in a different way. Your able to understand things differently and REALLY, I mean REALLY get to know yourself and what you want out of life. The first time I that I experienced this 'Soul Searching' was the summer of 2008. My first roommate had moved and I had a lot of time to think. For a while I felt alone. I would go to work and come home, stay inside and sulk. Halfway through the summer I realized that I was hurting no one but myself and that I did not like the person I had become. I started going to the pool and out with other friends who were still around and made an effort to analyze myself and who I wanted to be when I had a free moment to myself. That Summer was an eye opener for me and I will never forget how strong I had become by the end of it. At the beginning I felt as though I was lost and no one cared about me or what I did but if you can believe it, I believe that that summer was the beginning of the Ashley I had always been but didn't have the courage to show.

The Summer of 2009 was also a HUGE STEP for me. Earlier in the year I had broken up with my long time boyfriend and for the Summer...definitely wanted a change of scenery. The beginning of the Summer was great! I hung out with new friends, was always busy and had also planned a trip of a lifetime. I did something I thought I would never do, on a random day, I decided that I would go...actually go to Greece!!! After much talk with a few close friends - we thought WHY NOT???? So for 18 days, we backpacked across several islands of Greece and it was AMAZING!!! I am SO GLAD that I made a decision that changed my life for the better. You never know when or if you'll ever get to do those things on your bucket list, so CARPE DIEM!!! Seize the day, cause you'll never know when it will be your last. And if that is the only thing I learned in my Summer alone, it was well worth it and a lesson that not everyone has experienced.

All of this brings me up to the current Summer of 2010. Every day I go to work, then go home, alone. And you know what. That is totally OKAY with me! As I've gotten older, I have grown to enjoy those afternoons alone with my thoughts, or being able to do what I want to do when I want to do it. EVEN if that means just laying on the couch and watching TV. I constantly yearn for things to slow down. And even though I desperately miss my friends and family (and Agan - lol) I make up for it on the weekends. Most weekends are spent at home around the pool with great food and family, which are the perfect end to my work week. On the weekends I'm not home, I lounge around the pool right by my lonesome and enjoy a good book. Either or work for me.

No matter where you are in your life, or where you want to be, it has taken me 3 long Summers to realize that I enjoy both time alone and time with others. And they each have a time when appropriate. I have had to learn to make decision about when those times are when necessary and that I NEED to ENJOY every minute of life. It's short, so why not make the best of it! We should all think about that the next time we say no or maybe. Just do it, spend some time with your friends and spend sometime with yourself, finding out WHO you really are and WHAT you really want out of life...It will take your breath away.

R.I.P. Rasin Rocket...1997-2010...

It's official...the Raisin Rocket was pronounced dead on June 17, 2010 after having several surgery's to keep it's temperature down.  Unfortunately the doctor's were unable to say what was the cause of the temperature hike, however, an autopsy is being completed and we shall have the report soon.

I would like to take a moment and say a few quick words in it's honor.

~Thank you raisin rocket for being a GREAT and AMAZING car for 8 long years.  For making it on all of those long drives back and fourth to Athens, for hauling drunk and obnoxious friends home, for taking a beating last year from two wreaks in a row (though neither were your fault), for having THE BEST gas mileage EVER and for loving me enough to keep going all these years. The Raisin Rocket was born in 1997 and had over 227,000 miles...You will be greatly missed...

After much thought and consideration, we decided it was best to let the Raisin Rocket go, it was tired and exhausted and so to much my surprise...I was picked up by a couple of FABULOUS people on June 18, 2010 and we headed into town to look at some other vehicles.  After test driving a few cars, I feel in love with a 2006 Impala.  And to pay homage to the Raisin Rocket, she is also Maroon/Burgundy.  She is amazing and she is an automatic - I'm in HEAVEN!!

She also has helped me make the complete transition into adult - I now have insurance that I'm liable for (which is fine) and everyone (including children) will feel safe in this car!!  Thanks to those who made it possible, this is truly a HUGE and EXCITING experience for me and I LOVE IT!!!

Bucket List

SO...I have been developing a Bucket List for sometime now (I'm sure I'll probably add too it as I subtract from it) but I thought that this would be a good way to record my journey through life.

I've decided that I'm going to try and do at least one of these things a year (hopefully more!)
Here goes:

~Graduate from College!!
~Take a Picture with all the Bulldog Statues in Athens before I leave
~Skydiving
~Bungee Jump off a Bridge
~Go to New York and see a Broadway show
~Visit Austrailia
~Build a House
~See at least 7 of the New Wonders of the World
~Visit All 50 States
   States visited thus far:
          Georgia, Alabama, Florida, South Carolina, Colorado, Texas

~Finish learning to play the piano
~Drive down to Key West
~Wine tasting in the California Vineyards
~Try out for American Idol
~Snow Ski
~Cliff Dive (or at least jump - feet first is safest)
~Learn to sew
~Buy a new car
~Start my own Business (probably something to do with organizing)
~Volunteer at least once a month for a whole year
~Plant a flower bed and keep it alive
~Take family to Greece
~Visit Europe
~Ride an Elephant and a Camel

So far this is all I've got, but I think its a great start! I will mark them off as I go and add to it when necessary :)
PS - Thanks T!

Some Days Your the Bug....and Some Days Your the Windshield...

The older I get the more I realize how much I was in a hurry to grow up.  Always wishing and wanting and waiting and not fully enjoying my time as a kid.  Now that I'm 24, I sometimes long for the days when I had the summer off, no money worries, and simple thoughts of playing outside with cousins and close friends were enough to get you through any day.

I want to get back to those simple times in life where everything was okay and nothing could break your bond with those closest to your heart.  I long for the times when nothing but having a good time mattered and if you did fight with your sister, all you had to do was kiss and make up and continue on your way.  I want to see things as children see them, where most things are black and white, where there is wrong and right and that line is not blurred, where honesty is always the best policy and and no matter what, you always feel loved and wanted.

Although we can't go back in time, we do have choices in life.  We can choose to be happy with the decisions we make or we can regret them and live with guilt that encompasses our entire being.  Every decision, everything move, every calculated moment, we have a choice -We can choose to make the best of the situation, or we can choose to let it beat us down.  I personally choose to be happy and do what I deem necessary to make my life the best it can be.  Life is too short and too precious to let the small stuff stand in the way.  There are plenty of people who have it worse than we do and we should recognize that if there is a problem, that we should do what it takes to make it better. 

I know that in the heat of the situation it doesn't always seem that you have a choice.  But you do.  Take a step back, reflect and then make your decision based on what is best for you.  I know that it is easier said than done, but just remember, the way we handle things now, effects the way we handle things down the road. Will you build that bridge and get over it? Or will you die with that grudge, anger and hate you've been harboring for years?

Let it go, cause some days your the bug and some days your the windshield...          

Memorial Day Weekend

Thursday night I drove to Rock Hill, SC to visit Rusty, Sykora, Liliana and Bunny.  Dallas and I had a very pleasant ride until I got a speeding ticket about 10 min from there house... how nice...

 On Friday, I kept Liliana ALL DAY and we played and played and played!!!

The rest of the weekend was rather laid back and enjoyable.  Sykora and I went and watched Sex in the City 2 and LOVED IT!!!! Ain't nothin better than a girl's afternoon with a FABULOUS movie!!!

I'm glad we were able to spend a few days with some very special people who we are already missing...WE LOVE Y'ALL!!! XOXO

Headed to the Carolina's....

Today I am headed to Rock Hill, SC to see Sykora, Rusty, Liliana and Bunny!!! Tomorrow Agan will be joining us for the remainder of the weekend!! I am so excited to finally spend the weekend relaxing and with a special set of people!!  I CAN NOT WAIT, to see what the weekend has in store!

My car was finally fixed thanks to my Daddy and the boys!! So I'm good to go (hopefully-lol).

I want to wish everyone a HAPPY MEMORIAL DAY and to remind all to remember what that day is for and to say thank you to those who have served and who are continuing to protect our country...THANK YOU.

If It's Not One Thing...It's Another...

After falling off the banwagon 2 weeks ago, I jumped back on last Tuesday and picked up where I left off.  I started back with weight watchers and exercising.  Alexis and I have been walking about 2 1/2 miles a day, which makes me feel amazing!!! And also less hungry at night.  However, after my weigh in yesterday i had gained :(, I mean seriously!!! But not to let it get me down....in the words of Gloria Gaynor "I Will SURVIVE"!!!    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ybXrrTX3LuI

This weekend was also relaxing, despite that I was not able to attend one of my friends graduation parties, I did enjoy the relaxation of sleep, reading and laying by the pool...now granted, I can never do anything the easy way (I mean come ON - it's just not my style...lol) my friend Katie had a FABULOUS IDEA, we would buy a pool, but it on her back deck (on the 2nd story of her apt. mind you) and hand pump and fill it up with water....OH YES....SO we DID!!! And it was the BEST $15 ever spent!! Our 8 ft pool was the perfect way to relax and feel like a kid again!! Including a Popsicle!!! hehe - WE HAD A BLAST!!!

After this weekend and the WW disappointment, I was headed home last night to go on my walk...when all of a sudden on the Loop - my car started smoking!!!! Oh But YES!! I mean, what else could happen!!! LOL - at this point you have to realize that all you can do is laugh, so I called my friend Alexis,who came and sat with me while we waited on the boys (Andy, Cotney, and Thomas) to come and take a look at my car.  After much antifreeze and 45 min on the side of the road - we got it cranked and to my house.  In true Trailer Park Fashion, they jacked the car up (put it on cement blocks and preceded to work on my car, we did get the hose out, but couldn't get the other back in (OF COURSE - LOL) so Andy picked me up for work today and Daddy is coming to Athens this afternoon to help work on the Raisin Rocket...This poor baby is on it's last leg :(  BUT THANKS TO THE GUYS!!! THEY ARE TRULY THE BEST FRIENDS A GIRL COULD ASK FOR...And I'm sure they won't let me forget it....

Hopefully my car can be put back together in time for me to make it to Rock Hill, SC on Thursday to see Rusty, Sykora, Liliana, and Bunny!! I'm super excited!!! I get to experience my first Bunko game, keep baby girl, spend time with the fam and AGAN!!! and see Sex in the City 2 with Sis!!! YAY for a FABULOUS WEEKEND IN STORE!!!

...Well....if my car will allow - keep your fingers crossed!!

It's already Thursday?

Well to say the least I have not been doing as well as hoped...I have stuck to my points, but for the past couple of days, I've been starving!!! So i decided to try and eat more filling foods today, so I'll see how that goes.  I also took my measurements today....WOW...Really?

However discouraging it make look now, I am definitely going to continue to push through!  I tried P90X last night and after about 20 min, I decided that was a NO GO...I have to build up my endurance first!!!! So I hit the pavement and walked about 2 1/2 miles.  It was very nice and relaxing.

Also, I am really looking forward to my 21 day detox program.  I really need to rid myself of ALL of my toxins.  I hear the pills are pretty nasty, but I mean really, doesn't the taste go away??? We shall see - they are in the mail today.  I'm also looking forward to start my new book this week.  I have throughly enjoyed reading over the past few weeks and can't wait to continue reading through the summer, I already have several books waiting on me!

Overall, minus the loneliness of the nights, I don't think this summer is going to be to bad.  It might actually give me some time to enjoy myself...maybe...

A Weekend At Home...

This weekend at home was long and interesting.  This weekend I had the chance to voice my concern and love about some of my family relationships.  Not only was it a weight off my shoulders, I really think I got my point across and I hope that each and every person involved (including me) will take what was said and learn and grow from this experience.

The older I get the more I have to remind myself that I AM an adult and that I CAN make my own decisions.  I do appreciate and solicit advice when necessary, but I also have to figure out some things on my own.  THIS IS NOT A BAD THING!  I enjoy learning and growing as a person both mentally, physically and spiritually.  I feel as though I am at a crossroads in my life and this weekend, I decided which way to go.  It's a little scary I must say, however, adventurous at the same time and I am excited to see how this new person that I am becoming fits into my old life. 

I hope that those closest to me understand and welcome this women that I am becoming.  I want to still make a difference in the lives of others, but I have to begin with how I treat myself.  I am going to start taking better care of myself, I honestly DO NOT have a choice, I want to feel better and be able to do more.  And I believe that I have begun down that road; oh trust me, this is a hilly road and hopefully it will smooth out soon (once I get in the groove of things).

I do hope that those closest to me realize how much I love and care about them as not only individuals but that I also cherish the relationships that I have built with them as well.  I also hope that they will give me the time I need to make this transition smooth and understand that I might finally need some time to myself . I appreciate all the kind words of encouragement and hope that one day, everyone might see me as the woman I have become and love me as that woman.

I Thank God for allowing me to follow the path that will make me stronger and more durable, even if it's going to be hard, he wouldn't put me through it, if he didn't think I could handle it and I pray that each and every day I stand stronger and more poised as the woman I want to become.

Sad Day :(

Today is the day...Agan left this morning to head home for the summer and I'm really bummed about it.

Okay, Okay, I know what your thinking - Really?? But YES!!! I'm basically left alone for the rest of the summer, with only a couple of friends left here in Athens, I'll be working, working out and then....hanging by myself...Well not all the time, but you know what I mean, I've already started reading my summer books and with one down, who knows how many I will get through this summer. Okay and so it's not just that I'm going to be alone, I really am going to miss him.  Since our 'new' relationship has begun, it has made me realize that THIS is the PERSON I'm supposed to be with for the rest of my life and parting with him for 2 months is going to be exhausting...Long distance SUCKS and even though I'll see him most weekends, the thought of not seeing him on a day to day basis just breaks my heart. I know that this too shall pass and that time apart makes the heart grow fonder - BUT DANG IT - I already LOVE HIM SO MUCH, I just don't know how in the Hell it's not gonna run over...lol...

SO...I've been thinking, I need a project. Not sure what yet...but I HAVE GOT TO FIND SOMETHING TO DO DURING THE WEEK!!!! The weekends are booked with trips home, to Rock Hill, the Lake and the Coast, but I feel as though I'm going to be BORED OUT OF MY MIND!!!!  and Super Mario Brothers isn't going to cut it for long!

Hmmmmmmm.....

OH YEAH!!!!

 This weekend was a little upsetting, I was not able to graduate with my class, however, I was able to celebrate with one of my good friends Christine!! I got to finally meet her family and support her on one of the best days of her life!!! YAY CHRISTINE!!!!

So last night was my first weigh in (and after a weekend with Reba's cooking - mother's day with Agan's grandmother with homemade yeast rolls, etc - I know YUM!!) I really thought I wasn't going to loose ANY WEIGHT...HOWEVER....I lost 3.4 pounds!! YAY!!! That is such a huge accomplishment for me!!! I could not be any happier with myself and how well I have done this week.

Also, I start P90X this week, I will let you know how well this goes!

Also, this Thursday, Agan is moving home for the summer...And I'm really bummed that I'll be here by myself, however, I understand that this is what his internship requires, but I can be selfish and whine a little, I mean, I'm entitled...Right??? I'm gonna miss him...

 And finally - I'm looking forward to memorial day weekend because I get to keep LILIANA that Friday!!! I can't wait - she is getting soooooo big!!!!! We are going to have SO MUCH FUN!!  Can't wait!!

Day 2 - But still going strong...

I have survived yet another day (including eating out!) and feel great!! I can't imagine how I'll feel in a week!! This is going to be great.  I mean you really are what you eat - think about it - If you eat trash you produce trash - If you eat healthy then you produce a healthy person!! And I can't wait to see how great this is going to be.  I also believe that I am going to start P90X next week with my girl Alexis.  I'm going to be a mean, green, fighting machine that's HOT!!!

HAHA - I will not falter - GOOOOO MEEEEEEE!!!

Dieting Doesn't Work...

This morning was the beginning to a new day!! I started weight watchers this morning and am really excited about!! Tonight after dinner - I will have eaten all of my points and will still remain statsified!! How great is that!! I am so ready to loose weight and get back to being healthy.  Tomorrow I should be able to start excersizing again and get back into that habit as well.

So the first day has been a good one an all I can say is....dieting doesn't work - but HOPEFULLY Weight Watchers does...

Stay posted!

Catch Up

Last week was kinda busy - but I'll catch you up on my weekend and start over this week....

Friday I headed home and went and got my hair did by the Almighty Hair GOD!!! SWEET - I was so thankful he worked on this mop and got me back to normal!! Thanks Michael!!  I spent the evening with Uncle Scotty, Aunt Debbie, and Big G as we headed to the Pine Tree Festival Concert at the Rec Dept.  We saw Bucky Covington and Jimmy Wayne...Pretty cool if you ask me.

Saturday  - PINE TREE FESTIVAL DAY - the fam (minus momma,she was in San Francisco, CA) was stationed at the "Boneyard" bright and early that morning to prepare for a day of food and fun. My friend Jennifer Kilcrease stopped by to enjoy the festivities and went home with a TON of food (which I'm sure Dawson enjoyed as well - hehe).  We had a blast and even though T.H.A.T BBQ (T.J., Heather, Ashley, Tommy) didn't place - OUR FOOD WAS AMAZING (Damn those small town country hicks...)  After a long day, I skipped Abby and Mikey's wedding (which I hated) and went home exhausted!!!

Sunday - I stopped by and said goodbye to the fam and headed back to Athens to rest from a long weekend.

Today has been a very productive day - I worked and signed up for Weight Watchers once again.  I have decided that I NEED TO DO SOMETHING.... This time I am going to go to the meetings and see if that keeps me motivated - I will let you know how it goes. Wish me luck - I'm gonna need it!!!

It's my Birthday....

It's my Birthday...well...yesterday was, and I have to admit, it was a dog gone pretty good one!  I got several gifts and my favorite cake - Chocolate Chip Pound Cake...AND...A STRAWBERRY PIE!!! Oh yeah, go me, its my birthday....lol.

Overall I just want to say how grateful and blessed I am to have a wonderful group of family and friends that I was able to spend the day with.  I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world.

PS....YES, I know I'm old now...24...WOW...

Administrative Professionals Day

So today was Admin Prof Day!! YAY!! and it was super exciting cause I work with a FABULOUS group of people!  I walked in to a beautiful vase of flowers from my boss, then several others gave me a beautiful picture frame (monogrammed of course) and this cute card and teddy bear.  Also I received this Awesome and timeless DVD - Big Daddy - hahaha.

Besides the presents, its nice to know that people appreciate you and what you do for them.  It's nice to know that your hard work is recognized every once in a while, especially in my fast pace world.  This once again shows how much God has blessed me and graced me with a set of co-workers who have become my friends and who appreciate me for who I am.  And I couldn't ask for anything more.

So if you haven't said Thank you to someone who takes care of you today...you might want to do that - believe me... they remember...

THANKS GUYS!!

Interesting Weekend...

So the weekend started really well, I relaxed and laid out with Lisa on Saturday and then the group came over for our Grill Out at Agan's that night....Everything was going good until...well...I fell and sprained my ankle on the uneven ground (Dallas ran under my feet as well) And it wouldn't be such a big deal if everyone would quit asking me if I was drinking....I mean YES, but that didn't have anything to do with it...right?

Sunday was just as much fun, I slept in, Agan waited on my...hehe...and then I went to the Fox Theatre in the ATL to see Tyler Perry's "Madea's One Big Happy Family" with some FABULOUS WOMEN from work. Kathy, Teresa and my BFF Tikica!!! It was a HOOT!! I have never laughed or enjoyed a show sooooo much!! If you ever get the chance - you should see one of his shows!!! The bad part however was - I got car sick (YUCK!) and of course I was on crutches, which even now I am STILL SORE!!! But it was totally worth it!

Monday - well I started my 90 day cleanse and it has been great!!! I'm really enjoying this process.  Tomorrow I will be able to start working out again - Yesterday was my last day on crutches and I pray to God that my PT Brooks, doesn't kill me....

Overall, I really enjoyed my weekend...maybe a little to much - but whatever - I had fun and that's what's important!!

Ok..The Time has Come...

IT'S FINALLY THE WEEKEND!!! This weekend will be one of the only that I spend in Athens for the next few months and I'm really looking forward to doing whatever I want.  I plan to sleep late, lay by the pool, read, enjoy my friends at mine and Agan's BBQ and then head to ATL on Sunday to see "Madea's Big Happy Family" at the FOX with some of my favorite ladies from work.

I am also looking forward to being really well rested for my 90 day cleanse that I start on Monday.  A full mind, soul and body cleanse, it's gonna be great!!  I have decided that the next 90 days are going to change my life and I can't wait, it IS going to be the best thing that I've done for myself in a very long time and I can't even explain how great that is going to be for me, I need a break and definitely some change for the better.

So as the end of the day draws near, the more my excitement grows as I look forward to what the weekend has to offer my mind, body and soul.

Motivation

Since Haleigh's accident, I have been SOOOOOO unmotivated, I don't want to do anything anymore...Until...Today.

I decided last night that my I was tired of being 'sick and tired' and despite the fact that I'm exhausted and would rather lay on the couch and sleep, I was going to get back some sort of motivation in my life.  So I rescheduled with my personal trainer (we start back today), I'm starting to eat right again, I'm actually doing my work again, taking my dog outside...period...and finally spending time with my friends that are closest to me again.  I also started this book with a 90 day journey to a better me (I'll let you know how it goes) and can't quit thinking about how much I want to be happy and myself again.

I'm tired of feeling fat and gross and down and sick and just all these different emotions...I'M GOING TO CHANGE THESE THINGS, its all I can do, END OF STORY.

I hate the fact that I sometimes get into these slumps without reason and without a way to get out of them until I've already undone everything I worked so hard for, I mean, really Ashley...SNAP OUT OF IT. 

So as this day comes and goes, I am prepared to be motivated and continue that motivation throughout my daily life.

Really?

I am just amazed at how upsetting certain people can you make feel.  You TRY and TRY and TRY to be nice, include them and love them, and yet at the end of the day they resent you and everything you have ever done for them, whether they think back and remember or not - they are basically saying - I HATE YOU FOR HELPING ME...

What do I have to do to make you see that I nor the world is against you??? I just don't know anymore...

I want to be able to fix everything and make it all better, however, me being considerate and understanding is going to do nothing but make it worse.  I have decided to do nothing, and then at every opportunity be nice, THE NICEST and hope that one day they will think to themselves, hmmmmm, maybe I was being ugly, maybe I do have an attitude, maybe I should be more motivated and maybe I should be nice and love Ashley!!!!

Okay, so maybe I'm being a little dramatic, but honestly, how can someone resent you for wanting them to better themselves?

No matter - I will continue to do as I have and not push - but no longer will I be pushed around...

In Memory of Haleigh Marie Hudson (1993-2010)

 Haleigh Marie Hudson

October 13, 1993 - April 1, 2010

On Thursday, April 1st 2010 my cousin (who was like my sister) was tragically killed in a car wreck.  She was 16 and possibly the best person I knew.  She was loving, unselfish, grateful, honest, and just all around a genuinely GOOD kid.  She loved to sing, shoot skeet, READ, help out around the farm, and hang out with her family and friends.

For whatever reason, God decided that it was time for her to be him. I know that I always say everything happens for a reason.  And I truly believe it does, despite whether or not we know what that reason might be.  And despite the fact that she is in a better place, I miss her and wish she was still here with us.

I really hope that my Aunt and Uncle are able to overcome this tragedy and remember all the good times they shared.  They were truly lucky to have such a wonderful daughter and I hope that in the future they will be able to share those memories with others.

She was truly an angel sent from God and she will be dearly missed.  I love you Haleigh Bug!!!